Life is constantly changing. Yet I can't help but feel that I am finally moving on to the next chapter of my live. Slowly but still.
Recently the depression I have been going through took a very bad turn, as I become anti social and tried to cut out the people closest to me from my life. Not because I didn't love them, cause I do, but because I didn't think they had to put up with my moods. I got yelled at for that, it seems they love me enough to want to be around me even then.
During this time as I saw them less, I made new friends online. But I didn't forget my other friends, I just didn't have to be around these new friends so I didn't mind as much, I could just sign off without being rude. Then I met a special friend...
I am now seeking professional help. I will be going to therapy soon for my depression. I have also been sad less over all. Its still there, I still have issues with believing people like me or want me around even though they do. I will get through this.
With all these changes I honestly believe that I am moving forward. I am hanging out more, well I will be, with my local friends. And I am liking that I am now friends with people on a national level, I have helped them too. I like helping people. But I think... no I know I will be alright.
I know its short and I don't write often. Maybe I can change that soon. No promises readers but I will try.
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